No one is interested in what I do and in what I like. They only care when it's something connected to school.

I don't know what's so special in being alone and without friends. I seriously don't know. Maybe when you get older, and the only thing you care of is your family, maybe at that time, you are - we can say - justified to have fewer friends - even if I don't understand why I should not have a life after getting married or whatever your marital status will be. Why? I always considered myself different, and special, and unique but because no-one ever bothered of me and my feelings and my ideas. Nobody ever cared about what I thought or what I felt. They just lived their lives while I was trying to help them, listening to them, comforting them. They just ignored me. My family did. I was the quiet one, the stupid one, the one who had no self-esteem and still hasn't got any.

Why do I bother, btw? I'm going to be more lonely than ever in few months.

who decided I'm a strong woman? I never was, I will never be. My family decided that I should listen to all the crap they talk about, on how much they wish to die, how it's better not to listen to others because they shout the same stuff everyday, every minute. They decided I am the one the can vent on. Because I do not talk, I do not complain, I take everything on my shoulders, I listen to them and they talk about my sister, she makes mistakes, I get the scolding. How come?!

I know, I'm being childish, I admit that, I should have said the truth but I didn't want to. I hate feeling bad after being selfish, for that single moment. I am always selfish, especially with Danilo, I don't know how he puts it up with me.

Niente da dichiarare

Voglio vendere la mia prima nuvola a colui che sappia capire che più è lontana e più è preziosa. Vivo di caramelle che cadono dagli occhi delle stelle

...I'm

Losing my favourite game...