I don't know what's so special in being alone and without friends. I seriously don't know. Maybe when you get older, and the only thing you care of is your family, maybe at that time, you are - we can say - justified to have fewer friends - even if I don't understand why I should not have a life after getting married or whatever your marital status will be. Why? I always considered myself different, and special, and unique but because no-one ever bothered of me and my feelings and my ideas. Nobody ever cared about what I thought or what I felt. They just lived their lives while I was trying to help them, listening to them, comforting them. They just ignored me. My family did. I was the quiet one, the stupid one, the one who had no self-esteem and still hasn't got any.

Why do I bother, btw? I'm going to be more lonely than ever in few months.